Monday, April 7, 2014

Self Check

WWJD?
Love, serve and be kind to everyone, not just those who deserve it.
Are our heart doors open or do we have them locked up tight?
Do we only feed the well fed?
Heal only the well?
Hide the Light under a bushel or inside the "safe" walls?
Who are we turning our back on today because we are good and they are not?
The buried Talent is worthless.

Friday, April 4, 2014

I Tripped At The World!

Ok, strange title I know!  But it will become clear.

I have come back to a love of mine that I had put aside for a few years.  Reading.  If you know me, you know I love books.  I always have and I have tons of them and have read almost every one.

I finally went to the library in this town I have been in for a few years.  I had passed it many times and said one day, one day...  I finally did and it is not a huge library, small really, but it is a very busy place.  It doesn't have all the books I am looking for but it has many.  In the last 3 months I have read probably 20 books.  Page turners really excite me, I have to be careful though I will read at night, too late because I can't put it down.  I should be a critic.  Oh wait, I think I am!

Everybody has heard that reading books takes you places, let's you experience the writer's adventures.  It is so true, it broadens the mind.  Actually opens you up for ideas and possibilities that you would not have thought of before.

I have this thing, I don't just want to read them I want to own them but I have really put this library to use.  I am reading books I haven't read yet, some that I had read before a long time ago and I love it.

This library has many things to offer.  I take my niece as often as I can, she is a tween and broadening the mind early is important to me so I encourage her to expand her world.  Reading is a great way to do that.  This is all of course for the 5 minutes she is not on her iPod!

In the lobby there is a huge world globe that slowly circles around for your viewing pleasure.  It is about 6 feet tall fixed to a revolving base.  This all sits in an area filled with large blue glass looking rocks surrounded by a one foot tall ledge, just right for stepping up on it to see higher places on the globe, which I have of course.

With my niece one day, we decided to look at places on the globe that coincided with a couple of current events in the news lately.  Well remember my klutz stories??? Not as bad as though but yeah, toe of sandal caught the edge of that ledge just before I could secure my step up and look position!

Good grief!  I just laughed out loud thinking of the most important piece of this story, I am with a tween and embarrassment of adults is always lying just below the surface with them!  So there you have it, not a total crash and burn as it could have been but just enough to have my knee hit the top of the ledge, painful, and of course my hands, without pre-brain knowledge, in the blue glass looking rocks to avoid disaster.  So I did not fall down but all the same, unnatural contact was accomplished.

I recovered quickly, like are you kidding me???  But then I immediately thought and internally laughed at how my niece was feeling at that moment.  I would not have been surprised if she had walked on past like she didn't know me at all :)  But she is cool, and she thinks I am cool most of the time, we laughed together.

You know you try to be a good influence on a kid, then you go and tripped at the world!

What are you reading right now? 
I am reading
The Secret On Ararat... Fiction - Biblical Archeology
Texas Rangers History... Non Fiction, doing research on the law enforcement Rangers (4 books)
and of course the Bible... studying prophecies, Daniel and interestingly, did you know blaspheme is also called railing?  Hmmmmm.


Thursday, April 3, 2014

God's Not Dead, He Is Not Even Missing!

Through all the chaos, tragedy and loss it felt as though my mind was a radio not quite on the station.  The static was there but I couldn't put my finger on it.  I couldn't wrap my brain around all that was going on and the "whys" were piling up like an avalanche gone amuck. 

It's been over a year now and several losses later I am finally realizing something He wanted me to know.  My life compass was spinning around without clear direction.  God is great, He really is, but so many times we just cannot fathom His plan, His thought process or what He is trying to do for us. 

This something is a very simple point or lesson, if you will.  Like where was my mind??  Well it was off kilter, it was.

Very simply it dawned on me today that through all my upsets, losses and just plain lack of happy, God wanted me to know, to feel and to remember that I am not alone.  When I need a hug, when I need someone to hold me or tell me everything is going to be alright, I should think of Him first.  I am nor will I ever be alone, He is my comfort.  He is with me always and I needed to be reminded of that.

As is the case, sometimes in our life, He allows us to be in a valley, wander in the wilderness, be sad, feel alone just to simply remind us He holds the correct compass that never fails, ever.

Do I still have whys?  Yes.  Do I still have issues not yet resolved?  Yes.  But I am relaxed in the fact that He is what I have always known and trusted Him to be.  My Father, my shelter in the storm, my protector in the battles and the One who made me, loves me and I need to recognize Him, put Him first no matter what.  He is everything to me. 

Was I a bad person, who fell off a huge wagon somewhere, no.  I was hurt, my heart was hurt.  Still is in some ways, but the healing is in effect and I know it and I feel it.

Needless to say when I finally got this, this simple and huge lesson lovingly taught to me, it was like wow.  How simple was that, we make things so hard sometimes.  I know Whom I have believed and He is able.  And He is more patient than I deserve.  I love Him :)  Don't get me wrong, I knew all of this but I wasn't acting on it, I sought elsewhere, I did not literally go to Him first, put Him first, He requires this and I knew that.  If there was no one else in my life, would He be enough... Yes Sir, more than, I get it.

So let's get back on the road to happy people!  I think I will write some stories again!